Sunday, November 2, 2008


The other night I flew home from KT after visiting my sisters and my ailing adopted mom..."The VIP lady in my life" my previous my older post.

Friday night: 17th October

Took a flight TO home sweet Home...and paid a visit and to wish condolences to my immediate sister, Faezah and her daughter Nadia and son in law Din on the demise of their little almost two year old, Mohammad. This is my sister's first grandson. He was so lovable and a cheer in everyone's eyes. He passed away peacefully in the early morning hours of 12th October 2008.

The next morning visited my late Mom's grave yard which laid side by side with my late grandma, grandaunts, brother and now Mohammad. Felt the grief and sadness that enveloped me at the lost of them all BUT Allah loved them all TOO. May they all rest in peace. Ameen.

Sunday afternoon: 19th October    12:45pm

Visited my adopted mom, Tok Puan Tengku Dalam Fatimah bt.Tg.Ali on level seven, General Hospital, KT, with my elder sis Kak Zawahir. She was taken ill, deteriorating, much less talk and almost...yes quiet most times. She was earlier warded In University Hospital near my house.

I could not recognize her at an instant. She was so frail and weak. She looked different from the last time I visited her in UH, near my house. She lost a lot of weight.

29th October Wednesday evening : 6:00pm (?)  Prob.6: something 

After breaking of fast, I noticed these missed calls. Saw two of them missed calls from SNSO, TP's daughter. I then returned her calls. I was thinking instantly (1) she was trying to tell me about her mom.  (2) She was coming to join us for dinner.  BUT the second was a NO, no, no!  She was at the airport going home to see her mom who was still in the hospital.

7:23 pm:

"K.Pah, Mi nazak! They called and asked me to rush home." SNSO was on the other end.  Apparently she returned my unanswered call.

"I visited her recently...I could not recognise her at all." I told her.

"Be patient Noor, stay calm, pray and pray hard for her so that Allah gives her an easy way out"...

We both were sobbing and tears just flowed and flowed as I had my Maghrib prayer.  Had she drove home, I would have followed her.  I just couldn't bear to know she was in such situation... almost alone!  But from her office, she managed to get a ticket home.

7:30 pm

I don't feel comfortable... so I dialed another number to get some updates.

I was calling SNSO's younger sister, Sharifah Nazihah.
"Sah, how is MI?"

"K.Pah, she passed away at 6:00pm... now I am behind the ambulance taking her home to Yah's house. She was so calm and peaceful when she left us!"

I slumped in my bed! 6:00pm? The missed call was to TELL me, she had left us all. She had finally succumbed to her cancer of the esophagus after a strong and brave battle for a couple of years.

Oh Ya Allah! That 6:00pm missed call was to tell me she had gone. But SNSO did not know it that time...? Perhaps she was not informed in case she got panicky? I was so sad and grieved.

Suddenly those memories of her kindness replayed and replayed in my mind... I just could not express how I actually felt at loosing someone who has helped me a what and where I am today. I am speechless. Words just failed me. In the quietness of my bedroom, I deeply prayed for her...She is sadly missed. Now tears swelled up in my eyes...(it's 3:00 am now... I only managed to gather my strength to write about this after such a long time... so unlike Goofy Girl who had written about her dad's demise while she was talking to him... in the same evening she posted her scribe... brave girl she is).

She had opened the door to my future... I owed her to this fame and fortune I have been enjoying and she did touch so many other adopter daughters' hearts and paths in lives. I am one of them. Our relationship started back since 1972...36 years ago?????????

I just can't go on writing about her...its so melancholic... nostalgic...the loss of someone who was so dear to me... who had DONE equally substantial deeds as my two mothers did.....

May also my late Mom, late Ma, late Grandma, late Brothers Sisters and relatives, and my late Mak Ku rest in peace. Ameen.


  1. ALLAH in the name of The Most Affectionate, the Merciful.

  2. All praise unto Allah, Lord of all the worlds.

  3. The most Affectionate, The Merciful.

  4. Master of the Day of Requital.

  5. We worship You alone, and beg You alone for help.

  6. Guide us in the straight path.

  7. The path of those whom You have favoured. Not of those who have earned Your anger and nor of those who have gone astray.


Karim Omar said...

Innalillah. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmatNya ke atas ruh arwah.

Actually, I got the news earlier than Kak Emy - but did not know about your relationship.

SNSO tu yang mana satu - most of the siblings have that initials.

azahar said...

Deepest condolence to you and family for the demise of your beloved adopted mom.

I knew her too.

At our age we have got to come to term with someone very close to us falling sick or leaving us...

All around me, such people are getting old, me including..

My childhood friends, many of them are very sick now...some with diabetes, coronary disease, etc..

My mom and dad are not that well also..

Let us pray for everyone that we love...

RoyalTLady said...

"Special Dedication To The VIP Lady' was a little bit about my relationship with her and her family.

The children? Semuanya SNSO but here we always refer Sh.Normah as our SNSO, the ledest is Sh.Naemah, third Sh.Nadzrah, Fourth Sh.Nor Madiah, Sh.Nor Adibah and youngest Sh.Nazehah.

All are very dear to me especially when in time of sorrows...Allah meet us all. I had my share of doing a little bit when Mok Ku was hospitalized in UH.

I did not know you knew her too. She was here for a couple of weeks.

Which one you went to school with?

RoyalTLady said...


YES, finally she succumbed to it. Our turn to go won't be far too. alhamdulillah syukur, we are one of the few that are well.

While you still have the opportunity to take care of your parents, do your bits as and when time prevails.

Have you gone to see K.Moon and AB.Kamil yet?

Your beautiful young lady D is taking her exam soon? All the best to her.

azahar said...

Still couldn't find time yet to see them. For the past two weeks I was up to my neck with work - running here and there and came back only well past maghrib. We have communicated on hp though.

Actually I have lost two of my assistants and now I am running the state alone!

Well my darling daughter is finishing her second final semester. She will be back home this 12 November.

My youngest daughter, Amalia, is currently in Pusat Kecemerlangan Sukan, Jln Cochrane.

GrandmaK said...

My sincerest sympathy in your loss. May God bless you and your entire family! Cathy

RoyalTLady said...


Thanks for the wishes. Am still quite...(is there still and quite ...expressing together?) bereaved over this...

I would get over it somehow...

RoyalTLady said...


Goodness me! What had happened to your two assistants?

You are capable that is why you are left alone...What? running the entire vet of the state alone? Incredible!

You have brought up your children very well. Please extend my words to your mrs. too. Both of you have done well.

azahar said...

One went to Australia doing her Masters and the other was suspended due to a mistake made when he was somewhere else sometimes ago.

Till now, despite of my plea and begging, nothing happens. Of course in meetings, they said that the replacements were on the way...but for how long?

The stress is sometimes unbearable (up to my nose as they said). That was why I wrote that dok ghok doh story in my previous posting.

Well, our children, they really have brightened up our lives...just couldn't live without them. Now only the two of us in the house - correction, Syafiq just come back yesterday. On the 12Diyana will join us and 0n the 26, Syazwan will add up to our LOUD family...just couldn't wait to see the house full of lives again!

azahar said...

I can be considered very lucky to still have both mother and father around.

Though at times I felt guilty for not being able to devote my time fully and give tender loving care to them as prescribed by Islam.

Having said that I am trying my level best to see them daily, even for ten minutes, just to say hello, kiss their hands and hug them - my mom, she is so thin that all that I can feel are her bones...she is so choosy in what she eats that most of what we brought to her are left untouched...she likes the baulu that I bought from Kuala Kemaman..

As for my dad, he has been bed-ridden for many years now...I felt sad because I just don't have the energy to carry him to the rest room and bathe him...all such carrying chores I gave to a caretaker...Once I tried and I was short of breath that Syazwan ran after me, afraid that I might collapse..

So, to tghose who still have their mom and dad, please take care of them well and to those whose mom and dad have passed away, please pray and do good deeds so that their roh will be blessed...Ameen

The Dutchess said...

All the best to you..blessings:)

RoyalTLady said...

TQ sweet of you to constantly drop by.

The other day, I, saw this big quickly I ran upstairs to fetch my cam BUT by the time I came down, it disappeared. I failed again this time. Sad, sad.