The other night I flew home from KT after visiting my sisters and my ailing adopted mom..."The VIP lady in my life"...in my previous scribe...in my older post.
Friday night: 17th October
Took a flight TO home sweet Home...and paid a visit and to wish condolences to my immediate sister, Faezah and her daughter Nadia and son in law Din on the demise of their little almost two year old, Mohammad. This is my sister's first grandson. He was so lovable and a cheer in everyone's eyes. He passed away peacefully in the early morning hours of 12th October 2008.
The next morning visited my late Mom's grave yard which laid side by side with my late grandma, grandaunts, brother and now Mohammad. Felt the grief and sadness that enveloped me at the lost of them all BUT Allah loved them all TOO. May they all rest in peace. Ameen.
Sunday afternoon: 19th October 12:45pm
Visited my adopted mom, Tok Puan Tengku Dalam Fatimah bt.Tg.Ali on level seven, General Hospital, KT, with my elder sis Kak Zawahir. She was taken ill, deteriorating, much less talk and almost...yes quiet most times. She was earlier warded In University Hospital near my house.
I could not recognize her at an instant. She was so frail and weak. She looked different from the last time I visited her in UH, near my house. She lost a lot of weight.
29th October Wednesday evening : 6:00pm (?) Prob.6: something
After breaking of fast, I noticed these missed calls. Saw two of them missed calls from SNSO, TP's daughter. I then returned her calls. I was thinking instantly (1) she was trying to tell me about her mom. (2) She was coming to join us for dinner. BUT the second was a NO, no, no! She was at the airport going home to see her mom who was still in the hospital.
7:23 pm:
"K.Pah, Mi nazak! They called and asked me to rush home." SNSO was on the other end. Apparently she returned my unanswered call.
"I visited her recently...I could not recognise her at all." I told her.
"Be patient Noor, stay calm, pray and pray hard for her so that Allah gives her an easy way out"...
We both were sobbing and tears just flowed and flowed as I had my Maghrib prayer. Had she drove home, I would have followed her. I just couldn't bear to know she was in such situation... almost alone! But from her office, she managed to get a ticket home.
7:30 pm
I don't feel comfortable... so I dialed another number to get some updates.
I was calling SNSO's younger sister, Sharifah Nazihah.
"Sah, how is MI?"
"K.Pah, she passed away at 6:00pm... now I am behind the ambulance taking her home to Yah's house. She was so calm and peaceful when she left us!"
I slumped in my bed! 6:00pm? The missed call was to TELL me, she had left us all. She had finally succumbed to her cancer of the esophagus after a strong and brave battle for a couple of years.
Oh Ya Allah! That 6:00pm missed call was to tell me she had gone. But SNSO did not know it that time...? Perhaps she was not informed in case she got panicky? I was so sad and grieved.
Suddenly those memories of her kindness replayed and replayed in my mind... I just could not express how I actually felt at loosing someone who has helped me a lot...to what and where I am today. I am speechless. Words just failed me. In the quietness of my bedroom, I deeply prayed for her...She is sadly missed. Now tears swelled up in my eyes...(it's 3:00 am now... I only managed to gather my strength to write about this after such a long time... so unlike Goofy Girl who had written about her dad's demise while she was talking to him... in the same evening she posted her scribe... brave girl she is).
She had opened the door to my future... I owed her to this fame and fortune I have been enjoying and she did touch so many other adopter daughters' hearts and paths in lives. I am one of them. Our relationship started back since 1972...36 years ago?????????
I just can't go on writing about her...its so melancholic... nostalgic...the loss of someone who was so dear to me... who had DONE equally substantial deeds as my two mothers did.....
May also my late Mom, late Ma, late Grandma, late Brothers Sisters and relatives, and my late Mak Ku rest in peace. Ameen.
SURAH ALFATIHAH
Friday night: 17th October
Took a flight TO home sweet Home...and paid a visit and to wish condolences to my immediate sister, Faezah and her daughter Nadia and son in law Din on the demise of their little almost two year old, Mohammad. This is my sister's first grandson. He was so lovable and a cheer in everyone's eyes. He passed away peacefully in the early morning hours of 12th October 2008.
The next morning visited my late Mom's grave yard which laid side by side with my late grandma, grandaunts, brother and now Mohammad. Felt the grief and sadness that enveloped me at the lost of them all BUT Allah loved them all TOO. May they all rest in peace. Ameen.
Sunday afternoon: 19th October 12:45pm
Visited my adopted mom, Tok Puan Tengku Dalam Fatimah bt.Tg.Ali on level seven, General Hospital, KT, with my elder sis Kak Zawahir. She was taken ill, deteriorating, much less talk and almost...yes quiet most times. She was earlier warded In University Hospital near my house.
I could not recognize her at an instant. She was so frail and weak. She looked different from the last time I visited her in UH, near my house. She lost a lot of weight.
29th October Wednesday evening : 6:00pm (?) Prob.6: something
After breaking of fast, I noticed these missed calls. Saw two of them missed calls from SNSO, TP's daughter. I then returned her calls. I was thinking instantly (1) she was trying to tell me about her mom. (2) She was coming to join us for dinner. BUT the second was a NO, no, no! She was at the airport going home to see her mom who was still in the hospital.
7:23 pm:
"K.Pah, Mi nazak! They called and asked me to rush home." SNSO was on the other end. Apparently she returned my unanswered call.
"I visited her recently...I could not recognise her at all." I told her.
"Be patient Noor, stay calm, pray and pray hard for her so that Allah gives her an easy way out"...
We both were sobbing and tears just flowed and flowed as I had my Maghrib prayer. Had she drove home, I would have followed her. I just couldn't bear to know she was in such situation... almost alone! But from her office, she managed to get a ticket home.
7:30 pm
I don't feel comfortable... so I dialed another number to get some updates.
I was calling SNSO's younger sister, Sharifah Nazihah.
"Sah, how is MI?"
"K.Pah, she passed away at 6:00pm... now I am behind the ambulance taking her home to Yah's house. She was so calm and peaceful when she left us!"
I slumped in my bed! 6:00pm? The missed call was to TELL me, she had left us all. She had finally succumbed to her cancer of the esophagus after a strong and brave battle for a couple of years.
Oh Ya Allah! That 6:00pm missed call was to tell me she had gone. But SNSO did not know it that time...? Perhaps she was not informed in case she got panicky? I was so sad and grieved.
Suddenly those memories of her kindness replayed and replayed in my mind... I just could not express how I actually felt at loosing someone who has helped me a lot...to what and where I am today. I am speechless. Words just failed me. In the quietness of my bedroom, I deeply prayed for her...She is sadly missed. Now tears swelled up in my eyes...(it's 3:00 am now... I only managed to gather my strength to write about this after such a long time... so unlike Goofy Girl who had written about her dad's demise while she was talking to him... in the same evening she posted her scribe... brave girl she is).
She had opened the door to my future... I owed her to this fame and fortune I have been enjoying and she did touch so many other adopter daughters' hearts and paths in lives. I am one of them. Our relationship started back since 1972...36 years ago?????????
I just can't go on writing about her...its so melancholic... nostalgic...the loss of someone who was so dear to me... who had DONE equally substantial deeds as my two mothers did.....
May also my late Mom, late Ma, late Grandma, late Brothers Sisters and relatives, and my late Mak Ku rest in peace. Ameen.
SURAH ALFATIHAH
SURAH ALFATIHAH - TRANSLATION IN ENGLISH
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