THANK YOU MA

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY - SELAMAT HARI IBU (19xx-1981)

Thank you for this life, Ma
And for patiently bringing me up
To be what I am today (a responsible, caring and reliable person)
They were those hands that fed me well
Dressed me up and sent me to school
Those soft gentle, fine hands did everything
For my sakes so that I grew up
To be someone you wished me to be
Someone useful to the society and community at large

I was a year old when I was living with you
Soon after...almost 10 days later
My late father passed away peacefully...
He died young at the age of 30 plus
I was his favorite child as I was then the youngest
At least that was what I was told

Life went on normally and I grew up
In this house of memories
(only visited it on the 3rd of May 08 recently)
With much care, love and affections showered
And much more received in return by Ma
My! I was ever so grateful to her

The first day to school was "no need to accompany me"
I went alone and paid school fees
Went about the school as though I knew too well
Late evening, returned home
Feeling lonely! Very lonely

Then I began to make friends around the house
But it was only at a certain time of the day
I could go out and play and make noise
They were all older than me
Bigger in sizes too

We played among others ...
"Maing geng" was jumping in square boxes
Threw your dice and jumped
We drew lines on the ground
Of fine whitish grayish sand

"Congkak" was another traditional game
Burrowing holes in the ground
Putting stones or marbles in them
Arranging one by one in each hole until finished
Those people who got the most marbles
Was the winner of them all
Not forgetting though
ALL of us won black finger nails afterwards

Then came the separation
After primary six I went to a boarding school
I now knew too well she missed me so much
And of course, I missed her as much too
I only went home during the school holidays

Each time after the school holiday was over
I would sit quietly at the back of my classroom
And cried of homesick...
She would always send me off and packed me her famous
"Spicy Rice with chicken or beef"
And not forgetting my favorite canned peaches
That allowed me to share with friends

After completing secondary school
I was home for a few months and working temporarily
Then it was time to leave again
To further my studies

Fours years after, I was wedded
To my children's father
Time to leave again?
This time our separation was final!
We lived in England while he completed his studies

Then, One day in the summer
It was mid August in the year of 1981
Barely 2 weeks before we came home
For a short holiday
News of her demise shocked me
Through and Through and through !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It came through a normal mail
After a week she went away...
(no further comments here why through the "normal mail"...I never understood why until today)

On arrival to this empty house

Once I used to live in

I went to my dressing cupboard

Discovered many things that touched my heart greatly
A pair of diamond ear studs were obviously meant for me

Among other things found was a "baby linen set"

She had apparently stitched them up with love and care

Embroidered them for her first grandchild, Tash

They were neatly kept until today

Amir Harith (her great grandson) first used them on his Aqiqqah Day

I had always kept them well after each laundry

And used them to each of my new born

Then kept away with as much love and care

As her greatest love and care for me

Had always been

Very recently I dreamed of her

Laughing away, grinning away

Looking so well and full of zest

May Allah Bless her soul with Rahmat

And allow her to be

Where each of us wanted to be most...

Ma had sacrificed so many things for me

The most cherished was her never ending LOVE

Ma I have never stopped praying for you

As your love and affection to me

Never died...............it lingered on and on

So deeeeeeeeeeep inside me

I treasured YOU in my life and dreams

Thank you for the life you gave and shared with Me

Words just failed to express further

But my heart had all to say from deep inside of me

Your are the only and only Ma I had

Not two not three

BUT ONE AND ONLY MA

Thank you and Happy Mother's Day

These flowers were borrowed from Karin Frozen In Time
She really have great shots that interprets life..TQ
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU KARIN

This flower seems to tell
All the children, grandchildren and the whole clan
All locked and securely bunch up together
In the loving and affectionate arms of a Mother
Very caring and protective mother
Seemed extremely well sheltered