Sunday, March 13, 2011

REMAINING SWEET IN MY HEART FOREVER

A phone call that ended at 2:45p.m had triggered my sick mind to drop these lines... I am still fatigue with flu, cough and cold and feeling very sick this instant.


Subhanallah!  Something has triggered me to write this wonderful experience with wonderful people whom I have come across unexpectedly, who have walked and trodden my path of life and have SOMEHOW saved my "Lives" with their good hearts... each one of these experience was Allah's ways to show His Greatness.  He works with His Kuun Fayakuun.  and it shall happen.
The STAR newspaper (cannot remember the date, the month was probably October in the year 2003) was placed on an empty seat next to me after he has finished reading it.  I took the window seating leaving the middle seat empty. He had occupied the first seat and  was dressed in a black shirt and (probably black trousers too)... I cannot remember this part so well.  Somehow a little conversation broke the silence between us both. 
"Are you going to KT or living in KT?" was the silence breaker question!
"Going to KT" said I politely.
"Are you on the job?" He seems to pursue further.
"Nope.  Am only visiting my son who is schooling there", now the answer gets longer.
"What about the father, not coming along?", a trap question I called it. Hahaha.
"Nope!" said I abruptly.
And so the little conversation went on and on until the plane landed.  We went our separate ways soon after loading an additional phone number each on our mobiles.

The land of chemistry... that's how it all started. Apart from visiting Hafiz in his school frequently, the short stay in KT was not so boring after all.  It was spiced up with intermittent calls, laughter and new stories to share.  Apparently he is the flight engineer with the aircraft  of a major airline in the country. I and him were sharing similar place of studies... we were both schooling in a boarding school. That's about all that we have in common.  And oh yes... we were both chatter box.

Then came one particular December in 2004... I was helping my cousins with the wedding preparation and there was this familiar number flickering on my mobile.  It was him.  Asking how I had been and how was my business?  It was in the position equivalent to what the Malay proverb says "Shoving a pillow to a sleepy person"... Gosh!  That was the moment I have been praying for...

Something beyond expectations:
I was awarded with this particular project that I had no fund to start with.  Incredible wasn't it?  Yes, IT WAS.  I was supposed to complete my deliver and installation by February 2005.  I had started measuring for preliminary quotation since seven months ago and by this time, I have lost hope of getting and have put the file away.  On one Friday afternoon, a caller's voice on the other end gave me this ray of hope... a hope I have since shelved ... Allah knows best!
"Mam, could you come over to our office after the Friday prayer and we should have some discussion regarding your quotation that was so long shelved?"  was that hopeful remark on a Friday.
"Insyaallah, I would, " said I.  I was thinking on a fast lane.  Even if they don't give me the whole entire building, a few would just suffice. I would have always prayed for a job that is halal from all forms of evils.

I have just came back from another project site that was not meant for me!  The whole buildings were fully  curtained. My quotation was the lowest twice.  Yet I was not awarded the project.  The law says, the lowest should get it!  Although deep down I was a little slighted, but I did not give up hope.  I kept on praying hard so that Allah would replace me with a new project, which is easier to perform, with bigger margin, cleaner in ever sense of the word and easier in every way ... INDEED my prayer was answered.

At 2:30 p.m  I was  already seated waiting for the officer to invite me into his office.  After a brief discussion
I agreed to have my final measurement taken by the people from the factory before the installation could be done.  How much did I get?  I was given the whole entire building to put up the vertical blinds...Alhamdulillah.

AS I WAS WALKING towards my car... my thoughts run wild!!!!!!!  Ya Allah, from where shall I get the money for the "down payment" to the factory?  I have absolutely no idea at all.  No to factoring, no to credit lines, no to No NO No NO!  Nothing!  Never mind, with this faith strongly held inside me, I reached home which was my office too.

What struck me hard and transpired next  was that, this is merely an absolute  Help from Allah coming my way... to help raising my not-fatherless-children.  

The phone call from him was just a normal conversation.  Then he went on asking how was my  business and I have not forgotten to relate him the project that was not meant for me and also the one with no fund to begin with.

"How much you need?" He asked me such a question???? It was unbelievable.
"I have no idea yet until I inquired from the factory" I replied with my ears still in disbelief.
"Ok, make it quick.  Let me know the amount and  I should be able to help you".  He gave an assurance.
 "Alhamdulillah syukur!!!!!!!!! Okay, I would do that next day and thank you,"  said I. 

The help at the wedding preparation went on smoothly and I left my cousin's place shortly after mid night.

The following day..
After the negotiations with the factory and setting the date to deliver and install, I had then reverted to him and informed him the amount that was required.
"Okay, I shall ask Amir, my son, to put this amount into your account by tomorrow" was his promise. 
My, oh MY!  How shall I ever repay his kindness? His noble deed???
One particular morning during one of phone conversations with him I said,
 "I have never met anyone so kind, so helpful as you.  I have just met you, hardly know one another and here you are dare helping me???" I remarked.
"YOU have asked for help from Allah and Allah sends through me"... was his reply.
My goodness, are there many good Samaritans out there? Most I have come across, would not dare helping with such an amount.  Most would probably just belittle you ... trying to do a project with no capital???



Another incident that struck me was...
One day my MPV broke down and I was helpless ... have no one to turn to for help.  I prayed hard and one night an old classmate called me over the phone.  After a short while the conversation was cut off.  Apparently her phone was out of batteries.  The next morning after my Subuh Prayer, the same good Samaritan was on the phone asking me how I was.  And I told him about my car which was giving me a scary ride along the steep hilly slope of Ipoh on a rainy day with no proper braking system on except its ABS ...
"Don't worry my dear, help is on its way from Allah" was his short remark and it was indeed a remarkable one!
Indeed help came... almost abruptly after he put down his phone.
"Sorry about the phone last night.  The battery was flat. I remember the last thing I have asked was how's your car?" She came just on time to refresh the hanging conversation of last night.
"Oh yes, the car lost its braking system.  I wasn't sure what was wrong with it but it was at the mechanics for a while now.  Him not knowing where to get the spare parts and all"  said I.
"I have this reliable mechanic near my house and we could have your car towed over and meanwhile you could have my Mercedes  to use"... another unbelievable remark!!! Indeed it was unbelievable.

Anyway, I was lent her Merc and her Pajero for almost a month.  The mechanic found the spare part from Senawang and managed to trace the root problem to my MPV.  It was the servo pump which had stopped functioning.

People who have hearts of gold are rare to find... May Allah Bless them and their families with good health, long life and stay in High Iman and Taqwa always.  Amin.

this posting is dedicated to the one with a heart of GOLD>

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

problems uploading pictures

I know it's been such a long time since I last update my posting... But that doesn't mean it should make me feel strange, alienated and singled out from this blog land. Huh?  I am so determined to upload pictures to update myself, you and them... but for an hour now, the upload box just showing me "circling motions" instead of getting my pictures uploaded.  Never mind... I guess I should try again some other time.

Been busy with so many things around me.  My children, my grandchildren, life, house, chores, washing, hanging clothes to dry, attending weddings, breakfast out, lunch out and more... more, there should be more. Well, things are getting more active, easier to manage, to communicate and it is still the most up todate site... FACEBOOK.
Anyway, I really miss all my great friends in this blog land... it is most undeniable.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Memories are so fleeting... 29th 0CTOBER

Emy Ismail

Emy Ismail Sharifah Noradibah Syed Omar, Sharifah Normah Syed Omar and all in the family. While I am grieving together with a cyber friend Rukiah Omar whom I have never met but sharing some common friends in FB cyber-sphere, I have not forgotten someone extremely dear to my young adult life, has returned to our Creator on this... day (29th), Allah The Almighty. Coincidentally, it's D's birthday.

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    • Emy Ismail Diduakan agar rohnya dicucuri Rahmat, dihimpunkan dikalangan para solihin, dipermudahkan segala urusannya menuju Jannah, dipermudahkan hisab dihari kebangkitan dan agar mendapat syufaat Rasulullah s.a.w. Aaaamiiiiiiiiiiiin.
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    • Rukiah Omar ‎" In’na lillahi wa ‘in’na ‘ilaihi ro ji’un " May Allah bless her/his soul and may his/her family is comforted including you Emy. Sharing your memory to someone dear to you -kak Kiah.
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    • Emy Ismail
      Sis, SHE was the above-mentioned names' mother, used to be my neighbor, my adopted mom and the "step" towards my future. That was how Allah has arranged it and I owe her my life and everything that I do today. She had opened the door for m......e to enter, she was the catalyst who had helped to shape me up into what I am today. Subhanallah, Mashaalah what a wonderful mother she was to so many other "adopted" daughters that she had. Until today, her children and grandchildren (some) are bridging the relationship which are impossible to break with us all. How wonderful to have met her and she had played a precious role in my life.See More

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    • Rukiah Omar Like wise so is my dear beloved sister...who shaped my life in my formative years with her. Very strict she was but it did a world of good, dunia akhirat actually!
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    • Emy Ismail
      I hope my children shall one day read my appreciation towards this wonderful lady who had not only walked, touched and crossed my path of life, my future and my well being but also she was a much Blessed person on her own. The last day I... saw her was the 26th October 2008, lying in the hospital bed, with ONLY her eyes that was familiar to me... while the rest were beyond recognition. Mashaallah, Subhanallah!!!!!!!!!!!! I could never repay Mak Ku Tengku Dalam Fatimah's kindness and cud never found another wonderful heart as pure, sincere and forever shining through her sweet smile and warm words. She never knew how to grow old and tired of helping people around her. She had touched so many hearts, lives and souls and have knitted the threads of so many lives... untangled them in so many ways that Allah has alloed her... including mine.See More

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    • Rukiah Omar May Allah reward her million times over her kindness and love she showered to all those under her wings. I would call her an Earth Angel, doing Allah's work. Until such time we stoppe dmentioning their names, they are not gone. They live in our heart, don't they?
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    • Emy Ismail
      Absolutely Sis. She lives, lingers on and on until we finally go back to our Creator. That's how much (still more) I could describe her through personal experience. As I dwelled my past with her... am not spared for another "blurry visio...n" this instant. Thank you for kind words sis. That's the most wonderful thing to describe her, an Earth Angel.
      Amin for you dua.
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    • Emy Ismail ‎****Kak Pah,yr comments buat adi lg rindu dan teringat segala pergorbanan dan perhatian yg diberi kepada semua..tak kira anak sendiri, anak angkat and anak tiri..miss her so so much.. ******** from her wonderful daughter who had been my shadow since she was little... Sharifah Nor Adibah... I copied this from chat box.
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    • Emy Ismail To ALL her children: Thank you for making it possible for me to share your most wonderful MOM .... one of the most wonderful in this world. I can't say enough and I can't find better words to express but humbly I hope all of you accept this as my appreciations... :-))
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    • Emy Ismail Am off to Ampang now for a class till mid day... see you all later...Have a wonderful Sunday and share something good with someone today.... even if its just a little smile that you wear on your beautiful faces.
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    • Sharifah Normah Syed Omar
      am lost for words....only Allah knows what's inside of me at the moment...I know we missed her but tis worse for Bah. Still asking what Mum pesan for him....I guess not being able to be with her during her last moment must have affected him......in a way that he is still searching for her last wish for him, and how to go on, after being so dependent on her strength, though he had not realised all this while she's around...

      ...and for all the hearts she had touched through her lifetime, it is you that made her life meaningful through all her tribulations and challenges.....reaching out for those who needed her strengths and care, because she cared and had a lot to give.......cos the returns of the giving to others and celebrating their happiness offset her loneliness and pain.....
      ..and that my friends, were the best things my mother had through her lifetime, the wonderful beings who became the extended family whom she knew, will further build and strengthen one another.esp. in the hour of need....THANK YOU for colouring her life with such beautiful etchings of feelings that had her always being thankful to Allah for such a blessed time here..and Insyaallah hereafter, AMIN.
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    • Rukiah Omar Enjoyed reading about IBU MITHALI above. She would have been really happy to know you apprecaiate her. Bet she did what she did without expecting anything back. Little did she know how much she meant to all of the ones she touched. This thought goes to my mother too whom I have not forgotten, not even a day. With her in my mind my life is full of love so bountiful, pure and beautiful. May Allah bless all our 'mothers' who has given everything to us which only a mother could. Amin
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    • Sharifah Normah Syed Omar
      Amin. Salam ukwah....

      Now Iam thinking that, yes, we may have lost our mothers, but see how many we have gained...a sister, a friend of the sister who, like us, shared many similar journeys...and who are willing to listen and care...together... we will be strong and will try to expand the legacy of love from our mothers for the good of mankind..InsyaallahSee More

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    • Rukiah Omar Ameen. It is all Allah's will. May Allah bless our friendship, be it just in Cyber space only, I am sure the feeling is from the heart and as real as day.
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    • Rukiah Omar Emy, I will be out for the day with Myra, need to help her driving as she will take her Driving Test (practical) in December. She has already cook for me a Fillipino Vegetable dish cakked 'Pinakbit' consisting of 'terog, lady's finger, petola pahit?, kachang panjang, chilli, ginger, mushroom. She adds alot of Ikan bilis and some budu sauce of some kind. Very nice indeed. I will take a picture ...
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    • Emy Ismail
      Subhanallah, Mashaallah!!!!!!! Am in tears again after reading this thread that had touched me so much. The beautiful life that was knitted and threaded by Allah through His humble subjects have miraculously bind our hearts together, paved... the way to ukhwah, silaturrahim and insyaallah we may find our way to His path. To all our beautiful mothers : WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH BUT ALLAH LOVE YOU MORE...May every soul rest in peace and be placed amongst the
      Solihin. Amin
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    • Rukiah Omar Amin Wasalamulaikum. Need to go now for adrive. Tell Adik Cura not to worry about me being the driving instructor for Myra. I have attended a course on Driving Awareness!!! I have a history on my driving. May Allah look after me and Myra today.
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    • Emy Ismail
      Please send Myra, my regards and wishes for longer lasting friendship between you both. I remember having my driving test in winter. When the tested said "emergency brake!!!". I slammed on the pedal, the car made a loud screeching noise,s...kidded in the snow and iice covered surface, the old lady in white coat carrying a poodle turned to look and in panicky, away it jumped . I was laughing my heart out and I miserably failed the first test. LOL... something to cheer our
      depressing hearts...
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    • Emy Ismail Amin. May Allah look after you and Myra today, tomorrow and forever. Amin. I wud forward your message in his (CS's) column.
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Monday, October 4, 2010

MIRACLES AND SOFIYA'S ARRIVAL

Emy Ismail October 4 at 10:32pm .... AS I was writing to a  special FB friend ... Aishah Schwartz.
 
A miracle has taken over ME this morning. Alhamdulillah I did not have to go through what I went through with Amir Harith's birth two years and 8 months ago. When I was seated outside the labor room, I could hear everything... I mean from the little unborn's heart beat, with loud thumping noise coming from the monitor, the hassle and bustle, the nurses' voices trying to coax the mother-to-be between pushing, correct breathing, puffing and what naughts... that sent me frantically praying and saying my duas endlessly for her safe delivery. My heart beat went as rapid as it could. I was overly anxious. My mind went as wild as all the imaginations took me. Despite that, after reciting Yaasin, I still managed to write those encounters in a little green book which this morning, I did not forget to bring along. I was prepared to write something of that sort... if not worse.

SO when my watch showed 10:00a.m,  I took out my blue ball point pen, I detached its cap, turning the pages to locate a fresh new page and I found myself  asking from the deepest part of my heart... 


"What shall I write this time?   Where shall I begin"

I scribbled a few lines 
"I am now seated just as outside the labor room like how I did a couple of years ago to make dua for my darling eldest daughter as she was ready for another birth ..." 

I was perhaps on the same chair but obviously of similar design this time and outside the same room (?) trying to jot down as it is happening. And as though the "switch was off", my hand had stopped writing, my mind went almost dead with ideas, I slowly closed the little green book and to my utter astonishment, Nothing  absolutely nothing had came out of anything.  It had happened spontaneously as though the norm had taken place. No words to describe anything from the labor room which was only a few feet away from me. There was absolutely NO sound coming from there.  Only the nurses, Professor Silay from Cambodia and some assistance nurse were seen carrying out their "normal" duties.

So, I carefully, nicely
folded and put away the little faithful green book into my black hand bag, and went on with Surah Yaasin reading a couple more times with a deep thought that struck the bottom of my inner heart, that this time, I had wanted to welcome my little grand daughter with this beautiful and distinguished Surah.  

Just as I was finishing...

The young gentleman who is a banker with May Bank Selayang named, Mr.Jamal, whose wife was admitted at 1:00a.m, whom I saw was in great pain as she was shoved on a wheel chair by her own mom, had delivered their second baby at 1:30a.m,   had stopped by to ask if my new grandchild has arrived.  He was showing his concern. 


Last night, since Tasha was still away from giving birth , I managed to offer my solat hajat  (special prayer) for his wife, whom I never got to know her name, and of course to my daughter. As soon as I finished my prayer, I rushed up to the 10th floor of UMSC (University Malaya Specialist Center).

As the lift door opened, instantly, I heard a very loud cry coming from the labor room. Which labor room??? I wasn't sure.  So, I was half running towards Tasha's room.  It was not her baby but it was Mr.Jamal's baby.  

MIRACLE!!!
He was born without anyone around except  his own grandmother and obviously his own mother.  Later, the nurses were heard running towards them. The nurses had miscalculated his time of arrival. They thought it was going to be hours later although she had already "breaks her water bag"...

You cannot tell THESE five elements in life which are ALL and ONLY in the knowledge of Allah the ALMIGHTY!!! Subhanallah!!!!!!!!  First is : what is in the womb of a woman.  Second, when (referring to the exact timing) is the birth taking place.  Third: when is the death taking place  Fourth:  what is your fate in life.  Fifth: when is world coming to an end?

Alhamdulillah syukur. Masyaallah and Subhanallah, their baby has already been delivered just then. And Allah had answered my prayer for an easy and safe delivery for this particular baby.

"Not yet", I replied with a smile and felt so contented inside. 


"No noise, nothing. So I suppose there is no birth yet!"

He stood there smiling, in front of me.  Describing how his baby is getting on what to name him.  I had suggested Amir Hamzah which I instantly thought as "strong and perhaps powerful" .  Coincidentally he said,


"Yes, that's what me and my wife were thinking too, a name with an abbreviation of A and H".

"My first grandson's name is Amir Harith", said I.


Another MIRACLE!


Things had remained so peaceful since I was seated there for the past two hours. Then one of the nurses emerged from Tasha's room and I had asked if there was any progress?

"The baby isn't here yet?"  I asked innocently.

"Yes, the baby is already here, she was born at 10.27a.m"... 

WHAT? Alhamdulillah syukur. I guess my son-in-law was too over -whelmed with this second birth that he had unknowingly  and intentionally forgotten to take a peep out their door and inform us! He must also be over tired, fatigue and worn out with his sleepless night and eagerness to welcome his second baby.  He was there since 1:00a.m.

I was with Amir Harith and Zaza, my second daughter.  Just then Zaza had gone down to the parking lot , which was 10 floors below, to move her car which had blocked someone's vehicle.

But miraculously AND Alhamdulillah Syukur, this time Allah did not let me hear anything worrying  and causing anxiety  like that of two years and eight months ago. Nothing at all.  OR, was the door so "sound proof"? 

By the time I was asking the nurse, little Sofiya was already 13 minutes outside her mother's womb, born into this world, joining us all  and for the first time in her life, breathing this fresh air with no more water to float her in, no more womb to cuddle in, no more umbilical chord to be attached to and she is a free human being well wrapped up in the nice clean flannel cloth to be welcomed by all of us.

I felt this miracle had come from Allah Subhanahu wa Taala. Alhamdulillah.  For ME especially, this time there NO ordeal to go through.  It was like my life's journey was going to be taken away when I heard all those "anxious moments"  at Amir Harith's birth.  THIS time, there is great difference.  Allah Is Great, Allahu akbar!! It was the most pleasant and rarest journey of my life. Allah had listened, answered and Blessed my prayer... Amen Ya Robbil'alamiin.

Since you, Aisha Schwartz,  have become a special part of my life, I want to share this wonderful and indescribable experience first , with you and then with the rest of my blogger friends and fans who silently crept in and out of my blog land.


Special thanks to ALL who have offered their duas for Allah to facilitate this safe and smooth delivery:
My sisters and their families
My relatives from near and far
My friends from the Kuliah Dr.Abdullah Yasin : KGPA group
My classmates from school 1972 batch - STF.
and of course - not forgetting FB and blogger friends.


In return I now want to record my duas for all of the above: Thank you ALL:

May Allah Bless you, your family and friends with His LOVE and giving all of us longer lives with stronger faith in Him, Obey His Order to do what He like and Obey Him into leaving all His dislikes, giving us the opportunity of repentance and giving us pleasant experience and making Hisab easier  on the Day of Judgment.  Amin Amin Amin Ya Robbil'alamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin.